Hard work

I'm not doing it.

Actually, I spent most of yesterday chilling at home, having father-son time repairing fencing weapons, desperately avoiding the birds/bees speech, eating sour bread, etc. Which was very nice. I would've gone climbing, but it was pouring with rain so I kinda got over it.

More importantly, today I played my Royal Schools piano exam, grade 6. Mega-stressing, but I was quite chilled about it. Wore big thick snow gloves, got a lot of flak for them, but Golesworthy said it's legal to lank avs vibes. At least they did serve their function, which was to keep my hands toasty.

Pieces, perfect. Scales, perfect, except for the two I severely messed up on. Sightreading, crap. Aural, crap. For some strange reason, whatever pitch I play in my head is never the [itch that comes out. Maybe I should just do more singing... Some people say I can't sing, but I can. Not very well, but you have to if you want to get anywhere in music. So, I was really disappointed when I couldn't croak the right notes to save my life. And I think I got the time signature wrong.... And stress stress stress stress!!

An entire year of my life has just been shown off to an arb British dude in 20 minutes. I hope he sees the blood, toil, tears, and sweat that I put in to deliver that silent performance behind locked doors at the Music School. I hope I did well, dammit! Now it's all over, it's actually completely beyond my control. I've managed to get that chapter of hard work behind me. There's no question of passing, but I want a Distinction. Because I know I've worked for it.

And people around me go on with their daily lives like nothing has happened. But I guess it's like that with many things, like doing really well in anything, making someone smile, falling in love for the first time...

Meh, I'll get over it soon. Because I like to think I don't wear a sandwich board that says "NOTICE ME!!!!"... Or maybe I do....

So, as the day dies, (wow, it's only 3pm!!) I screw around on Dakka and MemeGenerator and Wondermark and Tumblr, hoping to hold up the good mood I'm in. Which ain't gonna happen. But what I will do is get home very soon, and then I can play more piano. There are few things that would make me more happier right now!

Because after the exam is over, you want to finish that Rachmaninoff... :)