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I have a science project. And a few tests. I don't need this shit.

What I really really really want to do right now is get a loud guitar and three clones of myself and just rock out for about a day or two non-stop. But right now I don't know if I'll even be capable of listening to the songs without breaking down. Dammit!

I actually just want to talk to her more. About anything really. But I can't because we're both so busy and it's all so stupid. I've never condoned sending people cryptic messages via blogs or tumblr posts, but I'm severely tempted to do so now.

She said indirectly that she just needs someone to love her again. And I can do that. Not a relationship. Not a formal public engagement. Just knowing that there is someone out there who will care about you like you are supposed to be bound together by the social code. Someone who will treat you like you're "together" without actually needing to be "together", I guess. I wonder if that's possible. I wonder if she knows what I'm willing to go through to get that. Because I need that kind of love as well. And I don't know if she doesn't know, or if she's not willing to try anymore. I don't know.

Got that off my chest. Now I can function normally again, hah.