On the fence. Haha.

So, big decision time. And I'm not talking about the

"To delete, or not to delete? That is the question!"
drama which is associated with cleaning out (most of) my external and laptop, because that was relatively easy, just a little time-consuming. bleh. But I'm on Act III of Modern Warfare on Veteran difficulty, so that means I'm almost finished and I'll finally know what all these inside jokes are about in the two later titles. Yay?

No, big decision time is that, for the last time while I'm at school and in 99% probability for the last time ever, I have the opportunity to go to the World Fencing Championships. And because none of my friends are ever on hand at times like these, I had to mull it over in my own little sinking pit of despair for about 30 minutes, and then man up and get over the depression. But I still thought it would make me feel better writing about it.

Basically, aside from all the fencing club politics at Bishops :( I'm also not too sure about how seriously I'm going to take fencing this year. I mean, the choice is kinda between "very" and "extremely", so okes evidently reckon it's a lank chilled decision. Well, obviously it's not, because my life contains literally 20 billion other things. Guy counted :P

Sucky problem is, my coach reckons (and he knows what he's talking about) that I'll need to take it extremely seriously. But then again he always says that. However, what with Northern Russia Gauteng holding all the good SAAFA shares and coincidentally all the crappy fencers, I'm in a bit of a stuck as to whether my pure killstreak will be enough. Because, you know, those guys totally take fencing seriously. The fencers, I mean, not the Northern Russians, because we've established that this is life or death for them. And I'm not even talking about purity and dedication, it's like the guys up north don't even care. And we've got some here too, but they tend to suck and not get into the national team. If you get my drift.

(And they're the ones with all the fancy equipment. Talk about inequality and capitalism!)

And then there's another worry that I won't get that killstreak. Huh boy. I should be okay if I take it at the very least to the same level as last year. But I want to take it further. But at the same time I don't want to give up the rest of my life, especially music. I mean, academics are super-important to me for the next two years. But I can handle them and fencing no problem. But music on top? And everything else on top of that? I mean, I'm not super super duper pro or anything, but still. Tough choice.

I don't know what's necessary and I don't know what's guaranteed, if anything. Argh! Most of all, I don't want to take the fun away from my fencing. Daymn.